Life as I know it

It's been a while since I posted anything on here. An update of me is what this is. Currently I am working on my teaching credential, working as a substitute teacher, and coaching track at Bakersfield High School. Running for me has taken a turn. I am not quite as motivated as before.

Deep down mentally, I want to train and compete. I look at times that I have run. I watch videos of races, but something keeps me from doing what I love. I don't know what it is. I yearn to get back to it. I was coming back for a while, but after I completed my first marathon, my body was wrecked. I have been plagued with a leg injury that has kept me from my running a bit, but there is an upside to it. I can only run without pain if I am going faster than 6min mile pace. This is where one of my issues comes in. Who wants to run that pace everyday when you feel tired? I am struggling with it. I manage 6 miles yesterday at 7 min avg. My leg was killing me afterwards. I have run a little bit with the kids I coach, but I fear that they will surpass me soon and there will be less motivation there than before. I need to find this motivation. I know there is something deep down within me that will lead to greatness. How do I get there though? I need to find the will, strength, and determination that was once there. There is so much I can do, but I am lazy. I need to get rid of this laziness... 6 miles take 2 tonight... hopefully it goes alright.